Funny thing is, seems like whenever you tell God you'll do whatever He wants you to (i'm not talking about that general kind of statement to God that romantically says "i'll do whatever you want" with stringed melodies playing beautifully in the background while you stand on a desolate beach and look out at the expansive ocean.)  i mean specifically give Him your day to do what He leads you to do, that day) He takes your list of Top 10 Things I Don't Want To Do and starts poppin' 'em off from the top.  Sometimes i get really mad and annoyed with God for this.  But if i think about it (and pray about it) enough, i remember what God is like, and how past experiences like this have turned out.  I begin to realize he doesn't do it to frustrate or discourage us, quite the opposite.  I think He knows our hang ups, our weakness, and our struggles and He's always trying to get us to "break through" to a new place in life.  It's we who want to hold on to the safe comfortable life.  God is saying...."you wanna live???  you wanna really live???  Drop those ol' fishing nets and follow me, i'll show you LIFE!  Yeah, it's scary sometimes (mostly all the time) but "in our weakness He is strong."

So that's my life today.  tell me what you think if you want.

joining the ranks of the un-creative yet thoroughly inspired by posting song lyrics:

Rescue me from hanging on this line
I won't give up on giving you
The chance to blow my mind
Let the eleventh hour quickly pass me by
I'll find you when I think I'm out of time
Take the place of my heart
Till I become a stranger to my life
I've been down without you
Wrong without your love
In time will I be what You're thinking of?

-Jars of Clay (and yes they're talking to God)

heres my celebrity look-alike profile.   Fact: there is more than one asian woman on there.  Im not sure what to think about that.

I love rainy monday mornings.

that's not just some poetic thing to say just to say something poetic.  its genuinely true.  rainy melancholy days are truly a beautiful thing in their own right.  if you know what i saying give me an amen.  sure a gorgeous sunny sparkling day full of fun and laughter is exhilarating and who could survive without a bunch of those.  but almost as vital to real life are those mornings like today when it seems like God is reminding us that, well....

"There is a time for everything, 
    and a season for every activity under heaven:"

and  

"a time to weep and a time to laugh, 
     a time to mourn and a time to dance,"  (Ecclesiastes 3:1,4)

And if there's a time for Exhilaration, then I think there has to be a time for the volume knob to be turned way down.  I've come to appreciate "volume turned down days" quite a bit really.  -kinda my emo days (wow i'm gonna get blasted for that one).  i hope you enjoy today.

kirk

So i don't update too much.  sigh.   maybe i'll try to more.  I know it would make YOU happy.  leave me some love.

kirky